Every now and then we come across a decision that is more than just a rationalization of shoulda, coulda, woulda….
At least for me many decisions involve more than just what’s in the paper as I tend to make my decision based on my emotions and what I call “philosophical believes” 🙂 Yes I tend to turn simple things into complicated stuff!
Here’s the deal, as off Canadian Immigration rules I am eligible to apply to become a Canadian (for all of you that don’t know how it works: 1st we become a “Permanent Resident” after 3 years leaving in Canada we can apply to become a citizen). In theory, you are eligible, you fill out the paper and you send it. That simple!
But not me….I go about asking “Do I feel like I am canadian?”, “Will I ever feel like one?” and at this point, almost 4 years of life in Canada and I feel like I will probably never feel like a Canadian as I was born in Brazil I think I will always be Brazilian and some things never change.
I must say that I DO appreciate Canada a lot. I have great admiration for this country and its people. Canadians are wonderful people and I feel very lucky to have “ended up” in here. I appreciate Canada’s effort in being an “open country” where if people want to come live here, they (at least) have the chance to make it right, they don’t need to break the rules they just need to learn how to comply with them.
Of course the immigration system in Canada is far from perfect, but at least there is one in place. Canada needs the immigrants, immigrants need Canada (many don’t need Canada, they choose Canada) and its like a marriage that all parts are doing their best to make it work. Some many not agree with this but most people have a fair opportunity in here, I’ve never felt disrespected, discriminated, or judged for being an immigrant (ok there was this old lady on the phone once lol).
Many, many brazilians that live in Canada way longer than I do will tell me otherwise….they will say “give it time and you will feel like a Canadian” and I can’t disagree with them as I will only know with time. So let’s wait and see 🙂
I remember once reading a brazilian (I think it was Otavio) saying that once we immigrate out of our country, we become “country-less” (“sem teto”) as we don’t feel as if you fully belong to your new country and when you go back “home” you don’t feel like you belong in there either. So maybe it’s fair to have both passports, one for each half of you. As I think what I am today is neither brazilian, neither canadian. I’m half of each 🙂